It’s been a while hasn’t it. For some reason I have not been up for blogging lately. I started back to work after a week and a half of being out after the toe surgery. It was a dreadful day. In the time I was off I truly felt a peace with the world. I was reading and writing. I was interacting with people about reading and writing. I wrote my first sermon. I prepared to lead my very first worship service. It was wonderful. I thought to myself, “This is what it means to be me.” And then I couldn’t be me anymore. I had to go back to my 8-5, task oriented, non-creative job. And my soul was in shock and rebellion from this. That and my toe hurt after being up on it most of the day.
Friday was a bit better. And then the weekend was awesome. I got to preach for the first time. I am planning on blogging about that more specifically later, but suffice to say it was an awesome experience.
And then I went to my 8-5, task oriented, non-creative job. But I was a bit more content because God confirmed some things for me when I preached. But again, more on that later.
There have been other things going on in life lately. For one I have been very tired. This is probably partially due to the surgery but I think it is mostly due to the weather. The short days are really messing with me. I am also the lead person for Operation Christmas Child at my church his year. Fun stuff. I love OCC. And this week and next I am facilitating my Sunday morning Bible study. I like all the stuff but it leaves me feeling lonely. I feel as though I have community but then I feel as though I don’t. Things like Facebook and Twitter are nice, but I feel as though they provide only the illusion of community instead of the reality. I feel linked up to many, but connected to so few. That said, I have two friends now that I can have over and still stay in my PJs. How cool is that? I love it.
It is sad to me that have gotten more calls from political telemarketers than anyone else. Truth be known, more than everyone else combined. I took a nap after work today to avoid throwing myself a pity party, but it is hard. Then one of my PJ friendscameover and that was nice because I didn’t have to entertain. I just got to be me with someone else in the room. It was really nice. And she made me cheesy rice and brought me chocolate.
I also got information on two schools in Jerusalem that I am going to look into in hopes of going there this summer. Another friend of mine threw out the dea of a kibbutz so I am going to look into that as well.
I found out I will get to go to my Aunt and Uncle’s for Thanksgiving which is good. My mom’s b-day is the day before so it will be good to see her for sure.
I am finally getting organized at work. After a year of trying to figure everything out without having a lot to go on, I am finally organizing it all. It’ quite amazing really. I have a new boss now and he is pretty awesome and has made work much less stressful. I am thankful for that. I only hope that his ledership is a gift from God to help me stay in this place as long as I am supposed to. But I am really wondering how long that is going to be. Maybe it’s much shorter than I think. Who knows.
Been thinking a lot lately about LGBT “issues” to include ordination of LGBT people. I am reading a book called “A Time to Embrace” by William Stacy Johnson. I also want to read Jack Rogers’ “Jesus, The Bible, And Homosexuality” and maybe “The Children are Free” by Rev. Jeff Miner and John Tyler (I think). It seems to me that since i am seeking ordination in PC(USA) I should seek to understand both sides of the issues which for me means learning much more about those who support ordination of LGBT people since my faith journey was predominantly fundamental until about a year and a half ago.
I have had a few folks send me messages on Facebook to ask me what I am up to lately. When I reply “working on my M-div” I seem to be getting silence. It irks me that fundies think if they don’t agree with something ignoring it will be helpful. Maybe I’m reading too much into it. Or maybe they are rallying the troops to attack from all sides. Maybe the are all praying for me in hopes that I will repent of my wickedness and turn from my wicked ways. If they are, I both appreciate it and am annoyed by it. *shrug*
In other news, I voted via absentee ballot the other day. Decided to do that due to the toe surgery. I am now officially an Obama Mama as Carol put it. : )
Well, I guess that’s all for now. Lots of ramblings, but hey…it’s something.