In previous posts I wrote about my hesitancy to lead. I have talked about fear to lead and feelings on inadequacy. Recently I have come to realize that it is not leadership itself that I have “issues” with but the context of leadership. When I have been placed in leadership very overtly and given authority very explicitly, I am very comfortable. When it is something that starts to happen organically, it freaks me out. Why is that I wonder? Other than the posibility that it could be related to the fact that I was often told I was “bossy” growing up, I am not sure. It wasn’t until high school that I received any official leadership training per say and so I think instead of learning how to refine my gifts I was told to put them away becauses they were unbecoming. Sheesh…life is complicated. If I was born a man I wonder if I would have been fed the same lines.
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