I think I am scared of commitment rigt now. This is a strange thing because I have not had this come up before. While I was in the Navy I had way too much going on. I had no boundaries in my life and always did what I thought I “should” do which was everything I was asked. That’s all changed in the past year. I have been practicing my “no” quite a bit. It has been nice. But now that I really want to say yes to things I am having a hard time doing that. I am afraid that I am going to take on too much again. I am afraid I am going to get overwhelmed and start to drown in requirements and commitments. I am afraid I am going to fail. But I am going CRAZY! I need to be involved in some kind of ministry and soon! I have said yes to getting involved in youth group but that shifts gears in the summer and slows down quite a bit. *sigh* I don’t know how God does it because I sure annoy the crap out of myelf sometimes.
On another note, I went to a wedding tonight. I wasn’t sure how it was going to pan out becauses literally the only person I knew there was the bride and she had quite a few other things on her mind. Well, it went well. While I still desire to get married one day, this desire no longer consumes me. Ever since I have felt God’s call on my life this desire, while ever present, is not as prominent in my mind. It’s kinda neat. : ) Cheers to the happy couple, A & R!