today was a very blah day. i reset the alarm twice this morning and finally got out of the bed in enough time to eat something and do a little devotional reading. work was laid back thankfully and I yearned for the end of the day before it was even 9am. i feel a bit friendless lately. i would kinda like to have a roommate but i don’t know if i really want to open that can of worms. i go to things that are supposed to be times of fellowship but i often don’t feel this is what happens. i don’t know how to break through the walls around me. i don’t know how to break through the walls within me.